S-L-O-W down

I had an unmistakable feeling yesterday.

I was in the kitchen. Feeling ansty. Wondering what to give Chimps for tea cos we couldn't eat the same and what would I have. It would have to be raw again or else I'd "ruin" a good raw day.

And I was cold. And I became bad tempered. And I quickly moved to a place of resenting this raw journey and knowing in my heart that I am not going to last and I am going to start eating crap again eventually.

So I stopped, listened, and made a vegan cooked meal that Chimps and I both enjoyed.

Today I enjoyed my smoothie and then settled to a cooked vegan lunch and another one for tea, shared with Chimps again.

I feel much better.

I just had to slow myself down and remember who I am.

This is not going to be a diet like any other I have been on.

This is my journey.

Peace.

x

Tabouleh heaven

I have discovered my new favourite thing, raw tabouleh. I've seen several recipes for this (SG - you listening?!) and this is what I did today. It was R-awesome:

4 or so cauliflower florets - put in food processor and whizzed up.
Handful each of mint, parsley and coriander - chopped
6 cherry tomatoes, diced

Mixed up with a huge slosh of olive oil and juice of half a lemon.

I served it with a little feta - but again found I am wanting less and less non-raw food.

It was absolutely delicious - the herbs made this so un believably R-awesome.

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Crossing my legs

Ok - now bear with me on this!

I have always been able to cross my legs :-)

But today, in a meeting, I found myself with my legs crossed really high and tucked right under me!

I do believe, there is less of me to cross.

(P.S. apologies to those of you who thouht this was some sort of icontinence post)

xxx

Waiting to Fail

Whenever I have changed my eating before, it has followed a clear pattern. I start with a bang. I quickly become evangelical about it. And I stay strong - I eliminate completely all foods that I consider "bad". And I am 100% successful for 6-12 months.

But secretly, inside, I am wating to fail. There is part of me that knows this way of eating is just not sustainable.

But this feels different. This is a gentle way of eating. And actually, I think the key is that I am being gentle with myself. My expectations are clear - eat a majority raw diet. But I am not eliminating anything. All I am doing is eating what makes me feel better. Sometimes that's a huge plate of green salad. And sometimes that's a dish of rhubarb crumble that my best friend has made me.

And as I feel my tastes change, I am really enjoying a gentle journey for once, rather than a radical shift which just leaves me waiting to fail.

x

Changing tatstes and desires

An odd thing happenned this morning.

To date , I've only been happy with my green smoothie providing it is thick and rich and gloopy. I've been adding some hemp oil, ground almonds, and recently some avocado. There's a little voice of anxiety inside me usually which is that the smoothie won't fill me up and so I need to bulk it up.

Also, if I'm honest, I've been trying to hide the taste of the kale or the spinach or whatever greens I'm using. But today, I caught a whiff of the kale as it whizzed up in water and thought "Wow, that's such a fresh and lovely smell - I want to be able to taste it in my smoothie".

So I only added banana, a little chopped pear and water. It was much runnier than usual, I only had one tumbler full, and it tasted delicious.

And I am full.

In fact - I sort of woke up full. That never happens to me!

Interesting changes in tastes and desires.

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My first uncookbook

At last I found one. I've been looking in all our healthfood shops which stock every detox book under the sun but nothing raw. Waterstones had nothing. But Today, Borders had one! just one mind. But it's big and beautiful and full of the most pictures. It's called RAWvolution by Matt Amsden and I am liking it so far.

I have some dehydrator questions so I need to get me to Rawkin post haste. Mebbe see yous there?

x

Harvest time

Harvest is my local health food shop. I'd not been in for ages so I paid a visit today. I found some fabulous stuff.

I bought coconut oil - not sure whether to wear it or eat it.

Hemp oil for my smoothies and to hide in Finn's food.

Braised Tofu - not raw but still one of my fave things and not had for ages.

Sprouting things! Made a lovely salad with peanut butter dressing.

The biggest and freshest Bok Choi.

Mmmmmmmmmmm. Harvest time.

x